I lack the discipline required to actually get things done right. I'll talk about it and I'll plan to do things but I'll probably never really do anything that will amount to something.
I'm a failure, consistently and constantly and it's just how things are now. I'm not good enough. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not smart enough. I'm not interesting enough. I'm not enough. Never enough for me or anyone else and it sucks. But things are what they are and I guess that's not really the point.
I mean, what are you supposed to do if you don't like something? Deal with it or change it. So I have to do that. I have to be better. And I just have to remember....
Good, Better, Best, never let it rest, until the good is better and the better is the best.
If I keep that in my mind I feel like I can do anything. Clean up the living room. Push myself to finish jogging that second mile. Reign in the desire to buy that candy. All iI have to do is tell myself I don't get to rest until it is the best. Which works for about half of me.
Sometimes I really wonder if people are all like this or if there really is something to this whole astrology thing. I feel like i'm constantly fighting with myself. Like i'm at war with my own self. Like there are 2 distinct personalities and opinions inside me that are constantly butting heads and at war with each other. I've always just chalked it up to that my star sign is Gemini, the twins. But a rational part of me thinks that's completely absurd.
Oh well. I'm avoiding again. I don't care.
Good post.
ReplyDeleteI like that quote, I might steal it :P
Who wrote it?
Ashen x
Apparently some guy named Tim Duncan who got it from his mom who must have gotten it from somewhere else.
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