Why...

Why oh why I avoid the food posts? Oh, cause I eat shit? Maybe maybe delicately balanced disaster? Ah.. Down the sweet road of 60 calorie yogurts, 300 or less frozen dinners, 88¢ for 60 cal salad bag. 20 for dressing. Water water coffee tea diet coke water 5, 10, 120, careful careful play the numbers. Walked 4 miles last night just to do it. Ate m&m's tho. I had 2 cups coffee sugar free sweetener, no milk. Spaghetti for 280 yogurt for 60, m&m's max 360 but shared with my son so about 700 calories. Can't sleep tho. I don't know. I need to sleep at least a little. I'm such a fucking wreck if I don't at least nap a bit. haven't been sleeping. Haven't really been eating. Except Denny's. If I go there. Pretty fucked in my brain right now but I think I just get like this when i'm not really eating. I don't want to eat. I thought about fasting today but then that other girl was in the lunch room. 2 of them now. She gives nee weird looks when I measure my salad dressing. She comments about frozen meals and to much sodium. Gee, if it contains 25% if the daily value i'm slowed and it's all i'm fucking eating it's probably ok. in fact it's probably good. But now there are 2 of then I have to watch out for trigger happy. Really need to try to sleep tho. It's the caffeine really. I think. Maybe.